Monday, June 8, 2008

Well, just last night I started sleeping without the U-shaped wall of steel around me. Now no steel, and I think I feel a bit better. We'll see how things go. It's a trade-off; I can sleep better with the steel, but I believe there are some serious side-effects from radiation and/or particulate matter induced in the steel itself by the criminals' directed energy weapons.

I had a good thought, though: I think something that could be very helpful is cold. Cold temperatures make it harder for the criminals to "visualize" us TIs. I think that sleeping in a walk-in refrigerator or freezer, like they have in restaurants and supermarkets, might be very helpful (provided you bring a sleeping bag and have enough clothing to sleep warm and cozy). I think just having that "wall of cold" all around you would (1) make it harder for them to visualize you, and (2) help keep your body cool, which is good in and of itself because often one effect of the directed-energy weapons is to heat our bodies.

Sunday, June 7, 2008

Well, the quality of what I've been eating is better, but I must confess that the quantity has not been up to my expectations. As TIs we really need to eat less and moderate our intake. I was thinking a lot about Ben Franklin last night (probably because I just saw National Treasure on TV again last night--that movie rocks!). Anyway, Ben was a genius, and one of his many aphorisms is To lengthen the life, lessen thy meals. It's not just about lengthening, though; it's about improving the quality of our lives. Eat less and I'll know I'll have more energy and just feel all-around better. I've been eating too much simply because, well, the life of a TI is not filled with a whole lot of pleasure. So, you know, I guess I'm just trying to get a quick pleasure fix from food, and I'm sure I'm not the only TI to do so. I am going to make a conscious effort to try to fix this.

Another Franklinism: Early to bed, early to rise, makes a man healthy, wealthy and wise. I keep terrible hours. Now I know that among TIs there are different schools of thought on this. Some think that we should go to bed at irregular hours (as I have been doing for a long, long time) so that the timing of our sleep is less predictable by the criminals who hurt us. And another philsophy is that we should exhaust ourselves first so that we fall right to sleep.

I disagree with both of these philosophies. In reference to exhaustion, being extremely tired when you lie down just ensures that you will be less able to defend against their attacks, and if you are undefended, they can probably wake you up out of sleep no matter how exhausted you are. In reference to being unpredictable, there is something to say for that strategy, but I found they are quite patient and seem to be just waiting for us to lie down. I think predictability is small price to pay for the benefit your body gets by knowing when it's time to sleep. And you can also plan each day better by knowing that by XYZ time (whatever time you choose to go to bed each night) you should be in bed (whatever "bed" you sleep in) and with some energy left to defend yourself as you descend into sleep.

Saturday, June 6, 2008

They did a lot of heating of the left side of my head yesterday, but a positive result is that I found something really wonderful at the supermarket: These "instant cold packs". It's a little plastic bag that you squeeze until it makes a "pop" sound, and then it instantly becomes very cold. They're great and I highly recommend them to other TIs.

Another positive change that I've made in my life, and that I want to recommnend to other TIs, is the elimination (or near elimination) of caffeine in my diet. I never thought I would be able to give up chocolate--I have had such a chocolate addiction over the years--but after not eating it for about two weeks now, I really don't miss it. And it's made a big difference in my health. It really has. I never was a really big coffee drinker and so giving that up is much easier.

If you stay away from coffee, tea and chocolate (and carob, too, I think) you'll eliminate the main sources of caffeine in your diet. The reason why caffeine is so bad is because (like nicotine, too, I think) it restricts the capillaries and the flow of blood. That is the *last* think a TI wants, especially if the criminals who attacks us are already targeting your brain. My advice is to stay away from caffeine and you'll be healthier.

I know it's hard to kick the caffeine habit because chocolate is so addicting--it gives you that instant high that is so addicting for TIs who are normally not feeling too well. And the sweetness of chocolate is nice too. For me, I still eat sweet foods but have substituted naturally sweet foods and "health food sweets". All I'm saying is that you can kick the chocolate habit if you really try. I did and I don't have any special will power or skills. Once you get past the two week point (go without chocolate for two weeks) it's much, much easier.

Wednesday, June 4, 2008

In case you haven't seen it, I've got a video of them shooting me in the nose on my activism page and also hosted on You Tube (search my name). The good thing is, since I did this, they have ligtened up on the attacks while I am awake. So I highly recommend to all TIs to record and post video evidence of the effects of what they do. The more evidence against these criminals, the better. You'll be safer individually and all TIs will benefit.

Sunday, June 1, 2008

Well, the good news of last month turned out not to be all I had hoped for. I am referring to the "file cabinet tunnel" that I had been sleeping in. Let me explain further.

From my experience it is clear that steel offers some resistance against both their visualization and attacking technologies. Many years ago (in 1998, I believe) I built a "steel coffin" out of custom-cut 14 gauge cold-rolled steel. I was actually working and living in a warehouse building at the time, with concrete walls, and the combination of the steel coffin and perhaps the surrounding concrete made for a near-perfect shield from their attacks. However, I soon gave up on the steel coffin for several reasons. For one thing, I had failed to plan properly: each sheet was cut much too large, and was extremely heavy and dangerous. Even though each sheet was only, say, 1/4" thick, each sheet was 3' x 4' (3 feet by 4 feet or so) and was extremely heavy. Add to this the fact that I was supporting the steel by stacks of concrete blocks that were subject to "shedding" (they shed little bits of concrete) and movement (stacks of concrete blocks are not a rigid structure). I was in fear of being crushed to the death by the steel sliding off the concrete. Also, I wrapped each sheet in the thickest brown packaging paper I could find, but the sharp corners of the steel easily cut through this, and these sharp corners were also very dangerous, and I cut myself on them frequently. If I had properly planned the size of each sheet and had the whole coffin custom welded, then this *might* have been doable. Even so, the thicker the better; it may be that 4-5 feet thick all around is what we really need to shield properly from the attackers. I think they were still able to penetrate it somewhat but nothing too horrible; the bigger problem was the static that would build up on the packaging paper that covered the steel, which caused some actual "hair pulling". Obviously, a thicker, better insulator was needed.

Now that's 14-gauge cold-rolled steel. The steel in file cabinets is much, much thinner. At first they couldn't penetrate it, but then they went and turned the intensity up of their weapons and penetrated it easily; they actually made the walls of the steel cabinets flex. I think also they were able to induce radiation and/or cause particulate emissions from the steel, and since I was in a narrow steel "tunnel", the ventilation was poor. I have had more success recently with a U-shaped wall of file cabinets around my head, with no steel directly overhead; at least this allows for much more ventilation. You still need to cover your mouth and eyes with your hands, and of course the rest of your body is still open to attack. See my description of the U-shaped wall under TI Defenses elsewhere on the TI Blog.

Other than a 6-foot thick steel walled coffin, there is no way to fully protect from their attacks. We are on the ground; they are in the air with helicopters, planes and UAVs. They shoot us with powerful, directed energy; we have only thin steel to shield with. They can use high-tech infrared and other imaging tools to see us; we cannot see them in the clouds. They have lots of money and manpower to devote to attacking us; we have little money and only ourselves. They can shoot at any part of our bodies, and we cannot cover all parts of our body at all times. You would have to build a multimillion-dollar steel bunker and live their 24-7 and never leave to be safe at all times; so individually we do not have much. It's going to take the collective conscience of America to end this--it's going to take many people standing up to them to put an end to this abombinable torture of the few. I hope that someday that day comes.

I'm 40 now and it's been 21 years of torture and maiming for me. And I'll tell you honestly that I am tired, and tired of defending my body 24-7-365. Last night I just let them attack me, and I may follow that course from now on, which will surely lead to my death, probably either by stroke or heart attack. I am not afraid to die. I just look at it from the standpoint not of throwing in the towel, but one of being tired after 21 years of torture. They torture me during the day, at night, when trying to sleep, when walking, every moment. Last night I was trying to watch TV and surf the Internet; they kept shooting me in the left brain. They were doing this yesterday also as I tried to go for a short walk. Over and over and over again; and I cannot protect every part of my body simultaneously, and also grow tired of this after 21 years of it.

This doesn't mean things are getting worse. I am hopeful for new and future targeted individuals, because things are different now. No matter what happens to me, this mafia (as I think the perpetrators are) won't be able to do to others what they did to me because the world is not the same now. When they started attacking me in 1987, there was no public internet. No blogs, no forums, no personal websites, no communication with the world. The IBM PC had started gaining a foothold in businesses, but most people did not have a computer at home. I was alone and isolated--completely. I couldn't go online and read about other targets; I didn't even know what was physically happening to me to make me suffer so much, or who was doing it, or why. For seven years the perpetrators made me suffer and suffer and I didn't even know what was going on. That's seven years of being suffocated; seven years of crying in public; seven years of humiliation, of isolation, of interference in personal and familial relationships; seven years of wishing I was never born. And I didn't even know how I was being hurt, or why.

Now there is the Internet, and blogs, and online communities. There is a whole wealth of information out there, if you sort through it, and the ability to connect to people all over the world. So the perpetrators will never have the ability again to do to someone what they did to me, because the world is not the same place. Maybe someday this world will also wake up to the evil that they are doing and put an end to it. Maybe. If not, at least I did the best I could. You know, we all have to look out for each other in this world or none of us is safe.

I think a lot of people know about this mafia and think that this is "the way the world is" and that I should just get wise. Well, it may be the way the world currently is, but it's not the way it has to be and certainly it's not the way the world should be. It's the way the world has to be as long as people continue to think it's the way it has to be. Change your mind; innocent people are being tortured, their lives ruined by selfish and small-minded monsters. We all need to stand up for our neighbor, even if that person is a stranger to us, even if it means putting ourselves in jeopardy, because it's the right thing to do, and just because you can "be cool" with this mafia now doesn't mean you will always be able to. These are people who use violence to get what they want. Is that the society you really want to live in? Think not only of yourself but of your children's children. All it takes for evil to win is for good people to do nothing. Eventually enough apathy, enough appeasement and enough resultant one-sided violence and lawlessness will lead to a very bad world in which to live.