Monday, September 28, 2009, 7:40pm

Bird in the sky

For 1-2 weeks now I have noticed (and others have also noticed, I have confirmed with other bystanders to make sure I am not seeing things) a very bright, low spot in the sky that appears to be a Low Earth Orbiting (LEO) satellite. This thing is VERY low; it is visible here in Southern Orange County, California, not only at night but also in the morning when the sky is blue and the sun is not yet too high.

It makes sense to me that the perpetrators would attack me (especially at night) by satellite for these reasons:

1. At night I am basically in one place
2. They want to shoot the directed energy (i.e., radiation) directly down at me as much as possible so that any radiation that doesn't go into me goes immediately into the ground. This helps prevent bystanders from getting hit by fallout
3. It would be very difficult and expensive, fuel wise, to have a helicopter or other vehicle "hover" in the same precise spot above me while I sleep (for maximum accuracy), whereas with a satellite in geosynchronous orbit and positioned directly above me, this is much easier and more cost effective.

Claims from NASA or other published sources notwithstanding, I think this bird is up there to attack *me*. This would explain a lot, anyway. If you happen to live in Southern Orange County, look up in the night sky for a bright light, much like a star, but too bright and close to be a star; and not only that, but if you look very closely, you'll see it has a red tail, which stars do not have. Wish I had a powerful camera, but I don't; if YOU do, please take some close-up photos. I have taken some with my 35mm camera (with no zoom lens) and will publish same if they come out decently.

Radiation protection gear helps

It's kind of sad, actually. They've basically been radiating me for 20 years now, but today is the first time I've ever bought any radiation-protection gear. Up until now I've spent a whole heck of a lot of money on steel, but most of that has been wasted. You need lead or lead equivalents to stop radiation; in short you need radiation protection gear. I look back now and feel I have been wasting my money and not protecting myself as well as I should have from the perpetrators; but you must understand that:

(a) I didn't always know how they were attacking, or that they were attacking with radiation (directed energy)
(b) When they used lower intensities on me, steel was more or less effective
(c) You always hear how lead is so extremely dangerous

But in fact, people use lead every day, including those who work in medical fields and do medical imaging to save lives. It is safe when it is inside properly constructed protective gear, and when used properly. So basically I've wasted my money and time and health on steel, but if you are also a target of these villains, you can benefit from my mistakes. My advice now is to save your money for radiation-protection gear and don't waste your money on steel, which is expensive and in many ways much more dangerous than radiation-protection gear because it is so heavy and often has sharp edges. I am not saying that standard radiation-protection gear can stop 100% everything the perpetrators do, but that it definitely helps, and more so, and more conveniently so, than steel.

They were attacking me as I sat in the van, and I simply did a simple test, holding a lead apron above my head, sensing they were attacking from above; and this made the non-stop attacking stop, for as long as I held the apron there. I will keep you apprised of how my experiences go with this and other protective gear.

Who are my attackers?

I am thinking these days more and more that they are mafia, and that what happened in 1963, with the assassination of John Kennedy, was a "mafia takeover" of the US. My reasons (circumstantial as they are):

1. Up until recently many strangers would drive by or walk by me (or walk right up to me) making the "mafia hit sign" (see previous blogs)
2. Jack Ruby said that the JFK assassination was about a takeover of the US
3. One of my favorite talk shows hosts of all time, Joey Reynolds (himself Italian), at one time on the air said that the mafia was running America (he recanted this on the air some years later)
4. Some sources have said the mafia killed JFK because he cut off ties with Cuba and they lost all their money-making casinos in Cuba
5. And recently when Obama made some comment about Americans should save money, not blow their money at Vegas (I forget the exact quote, forgive me), I recall seeing a video of the mayor (or some official) of Vegas saying that that was "very dangerous" for Obama to say that.

Truly all circumstantial evidence, but it kind of makes sense. A lot of cars drive up, by me, all around me, with American flags attached and so forth, but I know that (1) either these people are true patriots and not involved with perpetrators who harm me daily, or (2) the person in question *is* a perpetrator and is just trying to use psychology to make me "feel" like I am a traitor. We know who the real traitors are: They are ones with the directed-energy weapons, the ones lobotomizing people, making mafia hit signs at people, and torturing citizens with directed energy. *I* am the patriot who is willing to lay down his life to support the Constitution of the United States of America and the rule of law, and anyone who thinks that *I* am a traitor is either deranged or very, very misinformed (possibly purposely misinformed).

Wednesday, September 23, 2009, 5:25pm

Free computer repair

I don't live near a USO service center, and I want to do something for those who serve, so I will provide free PC repair services to any disabled American veteran, or any active duty military personnel--and their families--living in Southern Orange County (California) free of charge. I work for a national retailer and fix computers for a living.

If you're a disabled American vet or a struggling family of a GI overseas, give me a call at (949) 331-8335.

More on what they aim at

It appears that the perpetrators are actually attacking the medial palpebral ligament (MPL) rather than the orbicularis occuli muscle, which I thought at first. While it is true that the two tissues are connected, and that very often while targeting the MPL they stimulate both, it appears that it is the MPL that actually cuts off the nasal passages. At least, I was noticing the vibrations of my obicularis while still being able to breathe.

The MPL is this tiny ligament that expands and tightens upon stimulation and that is located in the "lacrimal groove" where it is very, very difficult to cover completely, even with my fingers. It is sort of the perfect target area for my attackers because it is (1) hard to defend and (2) does a lot of damage when fully contracted by stopping the airflow through the nasal passages.

Monday, September 21, 2009, 5:25pm

Where I'm Sleeping These Days

Just in case anyone wants to come watch the show--and I believe you might even call it one--I'm sleeping these nights (in my van) here in Southern California, in the city of Mission Viejo, in the shopping plaza that is right at the junction of Alicia Parkway and the I-5 Freeway. On one side of this junction is Target; and I'm on the other side, where there's a Del Taco, a Denny's, a Dollar Tree store and others. I park my van (and attempt to sleep while the perpetrators attempt to blind me) in the parking lot that is right between Denny's and La Jolla Bank. You can't miss my van; it's bright yellow with signs on it that say "MikeMatloff.com". I always park with the back end of my van facing the street, in a parking space that is adjacent to the street.

Every night I hear people touching, pushing pipes or something against my van, or otherwise getting very close/doing something to the back end of my van, where my head is and where I am trying to sleep. I usually am parked by 11pm and get up by 9:20am. I cannot confront my attackers because I am only one person, and by the time I rustle out of bed, get to the front door and get out, they are long gone. But if you show up and just wait in your car you may see some interesting antics around my van and in the near vicinity.

Physical

Pretty much the same old thing. Every night, they wait until I fall asleep and then get physically close to my van or attack from planes in the sky and use truly severe amounts of directed energy to overstimulate the orbicularis muscles of my eyes, now damaging them. Every night and morning I awake with less vision and bruised eyes and eye muscles (esp. that orbicularis muscle). I am psychologically OK and consider all damage they do to my eyes part of my "red badge of courage," so-to-speak.

My main thrust in life is to show that a person can have a conscience, can act honorably, and not have to (a) surrender to bullies or (b) become violent or (c) become suicidal. You can simply continue to be a good person no matter what. That's what it's all about.

Come down and spy on my van some night. You might be surprised at the show. If you see something juicy, take pics and send them to me.

Some more helpful tips

I may not do too well at protecting myself physically, mostly because I do not have the financial and situational wherewithal to do so. But don't let that stop you. I have lots of tips and helpful advice for defending yourself that would help others in luckier circumstances. Here is just some of the latest stuff I have discovered.

Backs of wrists: When you have nothing else at all to defend yourself with, the backs of your wrists are some pretty large and meaty places that you can, to a certain extent, cover your eyes with and protect yourself. Face downward, toward the earth, and really cover those eye orbits tightly, and hang on. You won't be able to block everything but you will block some of it and lessen what they could otherwise do.

Cold roll steel: Don't make the mistake that I made: Buy cold roll steel, not hot roll or any other kind of steel. I cannot defend myself well because of this tragic mistake.

Steel roof: Make sure to always have some sort of steel ceiling/roof above you, and make sure your eyes are close to it. The thicker the better. If you are sleeping in a steel van (like me), stay as far as possible away from all windows, and physically face away from the windows.

Attack vector: The planes/helicopters they attack me from (when attacking from above) appear as small crescent-shaped lights in the sky, designed to look like stars at night. But these are not stars, as starts do not move large distances across the sky (unless they're "falling" or "shooting" stars; you know what I mean).

"Knife hand" defense: I have mentioned previously about a "hand visor" defense, but now it appears that a hand held in the "knife" or "chop" position (flat with thumb tucked under) held with one edge right against the forehead, right between the eyes) is even more effective than the hand visor position. What appears to be happening is, the hand in between the eyes makes it difficult for the perpetrators to visualize (or see the head signature of) both your eyes at once. And the fingers extending up above the eyes, along the forehead, interfere with the trajectory toward the inner orbicularis muscle.

Friday, September 11, 2009, 7:58pm

Well, it's September 11, eight years after the tragedy, and I guess I just feel like I should blog something on this occasion. September 11, 2001 was a day of great tragedy and mindless violence, and it still resonates something deep within our consciousness, as it should.

To me, September 11 is a day on which "absolutists"--those who must further their cause at any price--went forth and shed innocent blood as way to advance their agendas. It is yet another sad example of those who believe "the ends justify the means" doing some very despicable ends. This affects me deeply, as I believe there are still others out there who torture myself and other innocent people as a violent means to an end. The day of peace and civility for all people has not yet come.

September 11 resonates personally for me as a time of both personal courage and cowardice. Courageous, when, on a night/early morning in 1998, I called the FBI to report to them a very suspicious man from Saudia Arabia whom I met at a terminal in JFK airport in New York. (I believe to this day it was Mohammed Atta; and the G-Man who answered the phone told me that basically all the Saudis hate us and so perhaps did not take my report as seriously as he should have.) And cowardice, too, on my part, when September 11 happened, and I did not step forth and (again) report what had happened at JFK (as I should have), for fear that the public, eager for vengeance, would think I had anything at all to do with the tragedy, which of course I absolutely did not. In fact, I did what I could to stop it, if I am correct in my assertion that the man I met at the airport was indeed Mohammed Atta. (The man indicated hate for the U.S. and acted strangely; he did not mention anything about flying planes into buildings (or committing any act of violence) or 9-11 would never have happened, I assure you. For full details of the encounter, please see previous blog entries.)

We are here eight years later and it is well that we should remember those who gave their lives and those who sacrified to save others on that fateful day; and we should keep in our hearts our servicemen and women who today and everyday also put their lives on the line every day to keep us safe. We are certainly a nation that is more vigilant. I question only, and with trepidation, whether we are a nation that is always fair and devoted to the human rights upon which our nation was founded. I will tell you with some sadness--but not a lot of surprise--that I am slowly but quite surely losing my vision because of what is being done to me by some Americans, some people in my own country, who, like the terrorists of 9-11, believe in violence as a means to an end. The constant bombardment of directed energy to my eyes takes its toll. They most definitely do not want me to write this blog. But I very much believe in free speech and in peace and the right to live peacefully.

Maybe someday the world will be a peaceful place. Until then, I don't want to live in fear and cowardice. I will continue to tell the truth, even if it does cost me my vision, or worse. It is better to do the right thing.

Why they do what they do

I've conjectured about this a lot before, so I won't spend too much time on this, but here are some new ideas I may not have blogged before. The details are insanely difficult to believe if you have not experienced what I have and seen what I have seen, but here it is in a nutshell, with no mincing of words: (1) It appears the perpetrators are government involved; (2) They appear to be, by various means, knocking many people "unconscious" and planting some kind of "mind reading chip" in people's heads (see previous blogs; I know this sounds preposterous--I know, I know); (3) Using directed energy to torture those who get in their way or don't do what they want them to; (4) and scars are left on the foreheads of those who they knock unconscious, lobotomize and implant.

What may be going on here is that this may all be CIA sponsored, and that this is sort of the new way of intelligence gathering; that by reading everyone's mind (presumably with computers monitoring output) you can tell who is friend, who is foe, who is a spy, who is up to no good, and so on. Now, I don't doubt that having the ability to read everyone's mind would indeed add a new level to intelligence gathering; but of course the problem is that this is more or less exactly what is feared and railed against in George Orwell's famous novel 1984. Perhaps the perpetrators think they are securing democracy around the world by doing this; but I think the result is just the opposite, for democracy has always been held as a form of government kindest to human rights, and if you don't even have the right to privacy of your own thoughts, what rights do you have?

I'm fairly certain our founding fathers would have put an amendment in the Constitution for "right to privacy of thoughts" if they had ever even considered that such privacy might ever be at risk. When they lived, this was a non-issue; but in the scary time of our present existence, technology has made grave human rights abuses possible. Consider: Putting a CIA agent or policeman in every home would also help to prevent crime and terrorism, but I think all citizens would find this, too, repugnant; and the point is, just because you can do a thing doesn't mean that you should. One must also consider that, if someone in the government has the right to read our thoughts, than who polices that person? The potential for corruption is tremendous, and government corruption is something our founding fathers also sought to prevent, as is evidenced, for example, by the checks and balances system.

Perhaps I am wrong that it is well-intentioned absolutists who are behind it all, and maybe it is just mafia criminal types; but at any rate, this is a thought that occurred to me that, perhaps, is worth sharing. I will say in closing that all violence, gang or individual, government-based or random, is perplexing, and makes me wonder where is our world headed. It is just sad, that is all. I'm not here to play my violin for sympathy, but wish perhaps to offer a few ideas and perspectives that you may not have considered before. I think there are always going to be people who cling to violence as a means to an end, and that there will always be people who just don't understand the way I think; but then there are still others who "get" what I believe in, which is that fairness and human rights are not merely desirable but essential on the pathway to peace.

Well, OK, enough blathering for one night. I am not a religous man, but I will say God bless those who gave their lives eight years ago trying to stop madmen. And God bless our soldiers and military for keeping us safe. And God bless those who every day fight madmen who believe in grave violence and deprivations of human rights, and who do so with the courage to not resort to violence themselves.

Amen.

Monday, September 1, 2009, 9:15pm

Same old song and dance

I'm sitting here in Kinko's and my head is throbbing. Same old story, only it's super hot right now in Southern California (as it is in many parts this time of year), and add to that the constant directed-energy attacks and suffocation while I'm in my van, and I end up being overheated and oxygen deprivated and--long story short--was trying to move my laptop bag over and across my lap and ended slamming--I mean slamming--the left side of my head into a very rigid piece of pointy plastic. I heard a CRACK! and thought I cracked my skull. I don't feel so good right now, but I'm not so sure that I actually cracked anything. No blood at least. The suffocation and facial spams due to the perpetrators did not stop and they are still attacking me even now as I type. Like I said, same old song and dance. For some of us, this is everyday. This is our life.

A taste of the song and dance

I want to try to give people a flavor for what the perpetrators do, to really understand the deep level of hatred, provocation and violence that people like me (i.e., those with a conscience) must endure at the hands of these perpetrators (more thoughts about who these perpetrators are later in this blog).

Yesterday, as I was stopped at a light, another car pulled beside me and the driver started screaming at me almost immediately: "Excuse me. EXCUSE ME!!!! EXCUSE-E-E-E MEE-EE-EE-EE-EE-EE!!!!!!!!" As he was shouting at me from almost the onset, I did not answer him. He wanted to know about my sign on the van that said "MikeMatloff.com" (my name) but I don't like to talk to strangers who scream at me. He concluded by saying that he "hated this Mike Matloff guy" and that he hopes "my finger falls off" (referring to the bandages he could see on the fingers of my left hand). Mind you, I never said one word to this "gentleman."

I've already related the account about the other "gentleman" who saw fit to tear up my back sign and stuff it under my windshield. Here's another thing the perpetrators do: They purposely drive their cars/trucks/vehicles right at me as if they're going to hit my van, and then swerve away just before they do. I have video--unfortunately grainy because it was taken on my $30 video camera (yes, $30) and at night to boot--but that shows this if you look closely. In the video, I am parked in a huge parking lot and a truck is coming toward my van. This is a huge, vacant parking lot, mind you; the driver could drive anywhere. Instead, he chooses to come quite close to my van before finally turning to make the curve. Here is the (unfortunately grainy) video.

Let me also share with you, briefly, some of the hate e-mail I get on a regular basis. Mind you, this e-mail is unsolicited; I do not know these people and have never written to them directly. They write to me in response to what they've seen on my website or on YouTube.com. Here are actual e-mails:

Sender 1:

- Your mother was so disappointed by you leaving, Mathew. She thought you a coward for it, and rightly so. Abandoning her like that when she needed you most WAS an act of a coward. These are all things that she told me. Maybe you could have even saved her, but I guess hindsight is 20/20, huh?

(Note: This would be more intimidating if the writer had gotten my name right.)

Sender 2:

- Aw, look at the poor baby wallowing on the floor.

- You're going to try and report me?! You can't even prevent us from entering your home- How do you think you can keep us off of youtube, you little queer?

(Written in response to my requesting that Google discontinue this person's account because of the first dispicable e-mail this user wrote (given next). Google said No.)

- You're such a pathetic little pussy man. A coward. A freak. No one would ever want to get close to someone like you. Damaged goods. Homo. Enjoy being alone until the end.

(the first e-mail from this "gentleman")

Apparently, you can say anything at all you want to on YouTube/Google and Google is ok with this. I disagree with this gentleman's assessment of me but don't have a problem with words such as "pathetic" or "coward." However, I draw the line at "pussy" and "Homo" as being disrespectful to women (in the first case) and disrespectful to gays (in the latter case). To me that puts this in the category of ad-hominem-laden "hate speech," which although protected by the First Amendment should not be encouraged or protected by Google, in my opinion. It used to be that people were responsible for what they said and did, but apparently not in Google's world.

I understand more than most the vital importance of protecting free speech, but I also believe in such things as Robert's Rules of Order and simply civility and decency. No matter how strong your opinion there is no need for ad hominem attacks and vicious name calling. In a court of law, your lawyer cannot call the other party a "homo" or "pussy"; they are held to certain standards of decorum. Likewise, there is no reason why bloggers or emailers cannot likewise be held to certain minimums of decency, unless Google wishes to encourage an atmosphere of intimidation and hatred rather than one of mutual respect.